The Recovery Project
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How we feel and behave on a daily basis relies completely on the effort we put into our recovery, our Stepwork, and being connected with our Higher Power. How focused do I stay in my daily meditation and Yoga practice? How often do I call my Sponsor in a week? How patient am I when one of my roommates doesn’t clean up after themselves? How understanding am I when I am angry and hurt over uncontrollable circumstances? It is universal law that what we put into something is what we get back in sobriety or work or a relationship. These are the kinds of questions that we have to start asking ourselves every day and especially when we take our 10th Step inventories in the evening.
Whether its recovery from addiction or freeing India from tyrannical rule, Gandhi’s famous quote applies: “Full effort is full victory!”
We seek a daily reprieve from our alcoholism and addictions, and it is our Higher Power that gives us strength, courage, honesty and love in amounts and strength that depend on how much attention we are giving to His will. When we have our hearts open to God, we are calm in thought and quiet in deed, and His Light shines through us in those small and big moments? as long as we are putting effort and time into our relationship with that Power.
When sad things happened in my past, I always figured that must be when God stopped paying attention, and so the only solution was to try and take the world under my control by being manipulative, or escape through drugs and alcohol. I didn’t trust God or believe He wanted the best for me. I didn’t think God loved me or was watching out for me because life didn’t always go the way I had been attached to it going. It didn?t occur to me that when things got difficult, that was the most important time to put even more time and effort into my connection with the Universe.
Now I look back and see that everything that has happened has been a blessing and a necessary lesson so I could become a more joyful and helpful woman. What happened in my past is done now. I don’t need to be ashamed because God is in all things and my past actions are lessons learned. Today, I have the 12 Steps as my solutions, and now I can do things differently. By accepting the existence of my God, fully and completely, I hope to have peace of mind more and more each day. That’s what I truly desire.
The concept of my Higher Power is amazing… all-loving, all-powerful, everywhere-all-the-time, ever watchful. I hope to know God more deeply every day, so I may be serene, sane, patient, trusting, calm and content… so God may lend me His strength to live through the day with dignity.
GOD IS. When we were drinking and using, I turned away from Goodness and from God by escaping the present and letting negativity and low vibrations become my existence. Now I realize that my Higher Power loves me, and is always paying attention to even the tiniest details of my life and relationships. GOD IS.
So, every day, we must ask ourselves how deeply and thoroughly are we really trying to connect with our Higher Power?
“We need to find God, and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature – trees, flowers, grass – grows in silence; see the stars, moon and sun, how they move in silence… We need silence to be able to touch souls.” –Mother Teresa